Friday, August 15, 2014

Monday, July 11, 2014

One more done! it sure did fly!!!

wow i can believe it is already pday again... that went by soooo quickly! i feel like i blink and my week is already gone!




sooooo this week had some pretty big highs and some lows too... but i loved every moment of it. first off i just want to say congratulations to margo and jim. i am so happy yall were able to make it to the temple and seal your family together for eternity. that is the reason i am out here. to help famileis do exactly that.




soo this week. hmmmm. where to start. ok so in chile all heating in the house runs on gas. well we ran out of gas. that means we had no hot water or heater in our house. we didnt have gas for about 10 days. those 10 days just happened to be the coldest 10 days ive had since ive been here =p it was sooo cold and crazy! we showered with water we boiled in an electric tea pot. it was pretty funny. about 2 days ago we got gas back! so we were all extremely thankful and happy. and it only cost us $300 =p




so we taught abouth 40 lessons this week. we got 8 new investigators. it was pretty awesome! we had about 4 inverstigators at church with us and an inactive man named paul with us too. it was nice. we have two sets of missionaries in our ward. this week the missionaries brought 1/6 of the people who were attending sacrament. there is a ton of work to do here. we have about 35 active people in the ward. our area has about 1000... yes 1000 inactive members. so yeah a lot of work. the other missionaries are about the same. it is really hard. chileans are stubborn =p they dont like to change their ways =p so yeah it is hard. one of my favorite people we teach is inactive. he has been a membor for about a year and he is pretty inactive. it breaks my heart but all we can do is keep providing him with spiritual experiences that will strengthen his testimoney. he loves to help us teach so hopefully that will help a little. its just hard with everyone. we have one awesome investigator named osvaldo. we thought he was gonna be super easy. he is just prepared. he believes everything we teach and he prays and reads every day. hes awesome. well we saw him again after church yesterday... he could barely walk straight. he was drunk... he went straight from sacrament to the bar so we are gonna have to help him with that =p its all hard but so worth it.




right now we are really trying to provide members with spitçritual experiences that will revamp their testimoney.... we do a lot of fhes. we are also trying to help guide our leaders in the right direction. our bishop is really excited (thats the best word in english i can think of =p) to have baptisms buttttt he wants to baptize children. only children. not their families too. so we have to help him a little get things back on track there =p and our ward mission leader is inactive so we have to help him too. its a lot of work but we are doing it.




this week has been so amazing though. there have been times where i have felt the spirit so strongly prompting me to say something. and when i say it it is so powerful and in perfect spanish! but after i say it im back to my broken spanish =p haha its pretty funny. but the spirit is amazing. it is so powerful. i love being a tool in the lords hands.




alrightr i have very little time left so i will tell you all about my new favorite scripture hero. I love the book of Enos. it is very short but sooo powerful. i have spent the last 2 or 3 days studying it in personal study. its so amazing. first off he had so much faith. he prayed so hard. he describes his prayer as a fight multiple times. he prays sooo hard. and for a long time. all day. he prayed so hard that the lord forgave him instantly. he also had enough faith that he could hear the lords voice. but the impressive thing is that the first thought that came to his head after he had been forgivem was that he hopes the lamanites can be forgiven too. his first thoughts were for his worst enemies. he wanted them to have the same oppertunities he did. he loved them so much. he even covenanted with the lord to save their race and the records of his people so one day they could be brought to god. that is crazy to me. i am trying to live my life like him. when i get frusterated with someone im trying to think of enos and the way he would react. it has helped a lot.




i know this church is true and i know that with the help of god we have the power to do all. i love this gospel. and i love you all!




have a blessed week!




LOVE ELDER JOHNSON

Thursday, August 7, 2014

August 4, 2014

I made it through week one!!!





Hello everyone!!!

how are you all? i am awesome!!! i have so much to say!!




first i have some buisness. send all letters and packagaes to my mission home. i will have my mom pu the address into the blog. and when you send packages only send them through usps. it is a lot more reliable and easier for my mission president. lable the ackage as mission supplies. nothing else if you do that is is a lot more likely to get to me.




ok now that is out of the way. I am great! i love it here so mich. i am in the ochagavia zone in my mission. it is the most ghetto but it is good =p my area is called diagonal. the people here are so nice. life is just simple here. i wish you all could see it. i cant use my camera in the streets. if i did that id get robbed =p but yeah its just simple. most people work from little shops in their house. its really cool. i love it.




i love the food here. we eat a lot of hot dogs, mashed potatoes, rice, and we drink a ton of coke. seriously a ton of coke. have you ever seen a 4 liter thing of coke? i have. i didnt even know they exist!!!! i also love to drink echo and matte. echo is like coffee but made from wheat and matte is a drink made from herbs. they are both big here wit he people and missionaries =p




my companion is awesome. his name is elder balarezo. he is from peru. he lived in italy for a long time though so he says his italian is better than his spanish =p he speaks really good spanish italian (im assuming) and english. i like him a lot.




so some of you might have seen my picture i took with my new companion and notyiced that my hair is really short... well there is a story behind that. in the ccm i was the designated barber. one night one of the elders tried to cut his own hair and it looked terrible... so i fixed it and it looked pretty good so i was n chargen of haircuts. i cut elder mertz hair one night and then the next i cut elder ballards. after each haircut i got better and better so i decided i could give mysel a haircut... i went and did the sides. they were pretty good. i had another elder clean them up for me (elder allen) i then cut the top. it was going pretty well for a while... but then i messed up. i accidently trimmed the front way short... like way sghort. i was using clippers so i have no idea how it got so short but it did. so yeah i was sad. i had to take my hair down to a 4 on the top to get it all even. i learned 2 lessons, 1 never cut your own hair, and 2 i look terrible with short hair =p




i love being out here. i love teaching too. it is kind of hard though. i have a really hard time understanding chileans. they talk really fast and mumble. im never 100% sure if what i am saying is a reply to what they just said =p im getting better though. im always exhausted by the end of the day because i have to translate in my head but its getting easier each day.




so yes i am in the mist ghetto zone in the west. my area isnt the worst but it is one of the worst. I loeve it though. i have never once felt in danger. the lord is prtecting me. the people who live here in the flite (what they call the ghetto <i probably spelt it way wrong>) are all so humble. they are pretty easy to teach. they know the truth once they hear it.




the ward is small. there are like 1000 members in the records for the area and like 30 are active. so yeah there is a lot of reactivation work. but there are also a lot of people here who havent ever been a member of the church. we teach a huge mix of both. right now we have about 6 investigators with baptism dates. hopefully we will have more next week! my first baptism is the 16 th =)




i just want to end the letter with a testimoney. i know this church is true. with all my heart. i know it can change lives. i have seen it already in my investigators and myself. it really can. i love the book of mormon. i love reading it and studying it. i love missionary work. there are so many good people in the world even in scary places. there is a way to everyones heart, it is our duty to find that way.




i love you all! hae a good week for me! i cant wait to hear from you all! have a blessed week!




love, elder johnson




(Here are a few extras that Declan shared in some other notes:)

i am currently in a persons house/store typing!!

i am awesome!! i love it out here!!! the people live such a simple life. everyone is so nice. i love my companion. im getting the language, slowly. its amazing!!!

in the field my pday is 6 hours. i have as many hours from that 6 to write as i want.

(About his hair:) haha its weird =p i dont like it too much but it works for here. ive never seen myself with hair this short so it was a shocker =p

(When asked if he was tall out there, and told that in his picture there was something about his companion that reminded his dad and mom of his good friend Nic Mower)

haha yeah im kind of tall. not relly though. my companion is peruvian. and his name is nicolas!


Tuesday, July 29, 2014

July 29, 2014 (Declan's letter)

 

July 29, 2014 From Declan's Mission President

MISION CHILE SANTIAGO OESTE

Presidente Jose A. Barreiros
Correos, Casilla 149
Pajaritos 1921
Maipú, Chile
Fono: 56-2-531-2258


29 July 2014

Dear Brother and Sister Johnson,

Sister Barreiros and I were pleased to welcome your son, Elder Johnson, to one of the finest missions in the world, the Chile Santiago West Mission. He is well and happy, and we are impressed with his enthusiasm for the work. After greeting him at the MTC and a brief tour of the beautiful city of Santiago, we arrived at our mission Office. I interviewed your son. My Assistants and office missionaries then gave him a brief orientation to the mission. We had a delicious lunch together, he met his new companion, and that afternoon he left the mission home and departed for his first area of labor.

Elder Johnson has been assigned to work with Elder Balarezo, who will serve as his training companion. Trainers are chosen for their competence, patience and dedication, and are selected after prayerful consideration. With this letter we are including a photograph taken of your son and his new companion with Sister Barreiros and myself.

Please accept our deep appreciation for raising such a fine son. We feel a genuine fellowship with you in supporting and providing him this opportunity to grow spiritually as he labors to bring souls unto Christ. It is my prayer that the Lord will inspire us all to sustain him in this challenging assignment. Please write him frequently, weekly if possible. Express your love, support, and confidence in him. You will witness miraculous changes in his life as he engages fully in the service of others.

Being parents ourselves, we understand your desire to occasionally send packages. For your information, packages sent to your missionary through FedEx often require large duty fees which must be paid by the missionary. Those sent through Global priority mail, marked missionary supplies and valued less than $100 usually arrive duty free and within 2 weeks. But currently there is a mail strike here in Chile, so please communicate with your son through Email.

If you have any questions or if we can assist you in any way, please do not hesitate to write.

Sincerely,

President Jose A. Barreiros
Chile Santiago West Mission

barreiros@ldschurch.org




Elder Rowley y Elder BangerterMisión Chile Santiago OesteSecretarios Ejecutivos0225312258 / 94401463







 

 

 

MTC Question & Answers (July 23, 2014)

1. What does your typical day's schedule look like?

i wake up at 7 and eat, excercise and have personal study and get ready then i go to the ccm at 9:45. i then sit in a class for 12 hours and then go back home. it is my last week here though. i go to the field next tueday.

2. Do you get a full day for P-day?

we get 3 hour pdays


3. Do you get to play soccer?


no we play volleyball ping pong or basketball every morning.



4. What do you do to work out?


we run for 15 min then play sports.



5. What is your favorite thing that they are feeding you?


i love the chorizo. it is a sausage they give us almost every day. i eat empenadas from a little shack on pdays.



6. Do all of the MTC missionaries live in the same house?


no some of the mtc missionaries live in the dorms here at the ccm



7. Are there any natives in the MTC with you?


yes there are. they are hilarious. i love the peruvians



8. Are you learning the language?


i am definitely learning a ton. the gift of tongues is so real



9. Are you having fun?


i am having a blast but im ready for the field



10. What do you do on your down time for fun?


we dont have any down time



11. What is it about your companions that makes you like them so much?


we just get along really well. they are both awesome guys



12. What are you most excited about when you get in the field?


i cant wait to teach real investigators and try to talk to chileans



13. What are you most nervous about when you get in the field?


speaking to chileans and teaching =p



14. What food item do you miss most from home?


ummmm i havent really missed many food items yet... you can get most of it here.. just for like tripple the price



15. How many times have you gotten to go to the temple?


ive been 3 times. the last time was cool because i did work for a guy named andrew webb.





 

July 23, 2014

Hi everyone! i hope youve all had amazing weeks! mine was sooo amazing.




i have a lot to say and only 30 min to type it so im gonna get straight to it. this week was amazing!! sunday was awesome but it wasnt as amazing as other weeks. i had a ton of fun but it wasnt as spiritual for me but that is probably because i did it all in spanish and didnt understand it all.




2 days ago one of the elders that is in my group went home so one of my companions was transfered over to be with the companion that got left behind. now my only companion is elder ballard.




yesterday was actually the most spiritual nday ive ever had in my life though. for the first time since i have been here i really felt like a missionary. it was really cool.




so every day we teach progresive investigators. yesterday we taught an investigator named iris. she was born in the catholic church but was never really active and she didnt feel like she had a relationship with god and she felt like she had never felt gods love before. we prepared our lesson yesterday on faith. we were going to explain that through faith we can develope a relationship with god and feel his love. we also had the scripture ether 12:12 to share with her. as we prepared we prayed and planned diligently for her and for our teacher. i had also been praying to have the spirit more strongly in my lessons and to be able to see my investigators through gods eyes and feel his love for the investigators.




we got in the lesson and began our lesson. it was our first lesson with 2 people instead of 3 so i thought it was gonna be weird. it wasnt. it felt so natural. i was calm and so was elder ballard. we just talked with her a little bit and then began our lesson. we explained what faith was and how we gain it. elder ballard then shared a personal experience and then we shared the scripture. she read it and while she read it her whole countanence changed. it was visible. i then asked her how she felt when she read the scripture ( i was feeling the spirit sooo strongly and i knew she was too) she then explained to us some of the trials she had been going through and how the scripture helped her so much. it changed her attitude about many things. we then asked her to be baptised and without hesitation she said yes. we then bore our testimonies and ended with a prayer.




after the lesson ended the spirit was still really strong. she then explained that everything she had said after we had her read the scripture was her talking and not the investigator. she had been having htose struggles and she had been praying for help. for the first time since i have been on my misssion i was really genualy a tool in the lords hands. i really helped her. we answered her prayers and we helped her come closer to the lord. it was awesome. at the same time my prayers were answered because i was able to feel the love god has for her, feel the spirit and see her through gods eyes.




this is an amazing work im doing here. this is an amazing gospel. god is amazzing. i love this church and i know with all my heart that it is true. i know god loves us all and i know that he answers our prayers.




thank you everyone for reading this and keeping up with me. i love you all and i hope you all have a blessed week.




Love elder johnson




(For verification I asked Declan if he was teaching a real investigator or a fake one. His response):




It was a fake one. the teacher was pretending to be an invesigator she taught.



also today i am going to go prosolite for the first time and then on friday i go on splits so yeah... pray for me =p

 

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

July 15, 2014

Hello all!




i hope you all had amazing weeks. mine was spectacular. it flew bye so quickly though! it was unreal. the longer im in the ccm the faster the weeks seem to go. co




Im doing really well. i might be sick and congested but im going strong!




so not a lot went on this week. i honestly have no clue what happened on which day. the whole week was just a blur. sunday was the only distinct day i remember. i just love sundays here. they are so amazing. i am able to feel the spirit sooo strongly. and i have had multiple prayers answered each sunday i have been here. its amazing.




im slowly becoming a better teacher. its super interesting being in a 3 man companionship. lessons are kind of hard because all of us have so much we want to share but we are figuring it out. i feel like i can cotribute a lot more in our discussions. i might not now much spanish but i can get my point across =p




so i just want to share a quick message with you all. ai know that the true church has been restored on the earth today. i know that the church was restored through joseph smith. the church is the church of jesus christ of latterday saints and it has all the power and authority that the church established by christ himself. the gospel is true. i love this church and i love the book of mormon.




have a blesseed week everyone and dont forget to thank the lord for all he has blessed you with.




p.s. i survived a small earthquake. i didnt feel anything but i heard it. it was funny





Tuesday, July 8, 2014

July 8, 2014

The new MTC Group
The new MTC Group
Hi everyone! i hope you are all having amazing weeks! mine have been flying bye!!! it feels like just 10 minutes ago was last sunday. its been so crazy!

My district
My district



this week we switched teachers. i thought i loved my last teachers but these ones are sooo awesome!!! we talk in a lot more spanish in these classes. the language is coming. its by no means coming fast but its slowly coming.




so i just want to share one of my testimoney this week. i know that god is there. ive had my doubts in the past but after this week i have no doubt in my mind that he is. i have seen his hand in my life like crazy. i also know that when we pray we are talking directly to him. he also knows each one of us individually. this week has been kind of hard for me. i was struggling. i wanted to know why this had to be so hard. i felt like i had already given up so much to be here so why did it have to be so hard to learn spanish and to teach investigators. i bore my heart out to god and the next day in church we had a lesson about why this was so hard and why it is important for us to have challenges in life. it was so crazy. he answered my prayer almost immedietly. i also know that this church is true. this is the true church and it is the restored church of jesus christ. i know that the book of mormon is true. im reading it in spanish right now. though i dont understand a lot of it i have never felt its truthfulness more than i have these past 3 weeks. if you take time to really read and pray and ponder about it you will know of its truthfullness too. i love this gospel and this mission i have the oppertunity to serve.




i also love all of you. i hope that you all have blessed weeks and i hope you all know that through god all is possible.

The house I live in (this was Andrew's Mission home when he was on his mission)
The house I live in (this was Andrew's mission home when he was on his mission)
 

 

 

Tuesday, July 1, 2014

July 1, 2014

hello everyone!

Three best friends. Elder Ballard, Elder Johnson, Elder Mertz
Three best friends. Elder Ballard, Elder Johnson, Elder Mertz



week 2 was pretty amazing. as soon as i finished writing i went to the temple. that was an amazing experience. i learned so much the second time through. and it is a tiny temple so that was cool too.




Morning teachers
Morning teachers
this has been an extremely spiritual week. i have felt the spirit sooo strongly. it has been crazy! i feel so uplifted all of the time. there are some hard times but it is mostly fun and extremely enjoyable. the language is getting better too. i am actually amazed at how much ive learned. in the two weeks ive been here ive learned more spanish than i did in the 2 years i took the class in highschool. im by no means fluent but i can stumble through a conversation.




so i really want to send pictures but i have no idea how to work this camera so im not sure if ill get any off this week.

Afternoon teacher
Afternoon teacher



santiago is a really cool city. i currently live in a 100 year old house in the east mission. we do our personal study there every morning and then by bus we get brought to the MTC. we spend 10 hours at the mtc in classes then we get bussed back to the house to sleep. thats my life. and i love it.




Afternoon teacher
Afternoon teacher
i knew i was going to gain weight on my mission but i didnt know it was gonna happen this fast... we eat so many carbs here. i feel like ive gained 10 lbs.




so this sunday was definitely the best day ive had out here. i got hit with a huge wall of the spirit. it was crazy. each week we are asked to prepare a talk for sunday and on sunday they call random people to give talks. i got called on this last sunday. the talk is supposed to be mostly in spanish and so i wrote a little talk in spanish but i shared an experience in english. the meeting was on prayer. i shared a story about a time i remeber praying harder than i have ever prayed before for the health of my sister. i was bawling... and so was the rest of the congregation. it was amazing. ive never felt the spirit so strongly before in my life.

Evening teacher (my favorite)
Evening teacher (my favorite)



i just want to leave you all with my testimoney. i know this church is true with all of my heart. it is the one true church on this earth. i know joseph smith is a true prophet and that he did see heavenly father and jesus in the grove. i know that the book of mormon is true. i also know that thomas s monson is a true prophet. i know that this is where i meant to be right now. i know that this is an amazing work that im doing and i am so excited to bring people unto christ.

My district
My district



i love you all. i hope you have blessed weeks.

The three amigos
The three amigos



love elder johnson

Elder Johnson, my little brother.  He is 2 weeks younger than me and arrived 4 weeks before me.  He just left to the east mission.
Elder Johnson, my little brother. He is 2 weeks younger than me and arrived 4 weeks before me. He just left to the east mission.
 

One classroom has no window so we made one
One classroom has no window so we made one
Elder Ballard
Elder Ballard
 

Elder Mertz
Elder Mertz
 

Sunday, June 29, 2014

June 24, 2014

Hola familia!!! i hope all of you are having fun doing whatever you are doing. today is my first pday and i am quickly realizing that 1 hour isnt much time to write. our pday lasts 3 hours in the mtc and it has already flown bye. after this we get to go to the temple and do an endowment session though so i am super excited. i probably wont type in caps the whole tim im here though becaue the keyboards are super screwy.




i dont even know where to begin... i guess the airport. as soon as i walked away from security i felt like i wanted to just sit down and cry. i was soooo sad. but that all quickly changed when i realized that i had to go exchange my money in a different terminal so i tucked away my emotion and started going. i havent stopped going since. there is so much work kto be done and so little time to do it.




this experience has been so great already. i have already learned sooo much and i have already met so many amazing people. i am in a tripple companionship. my companions names are elder mertz and elder ballard ( yes his grandfather is the apostle but he doesnt like mentioning it because he wants to be his own person). they are both so awesome. they are lots of fun and we have already spent many hours laughing together.




the first day here was the longest day of my life. all 14 of us missionaries who came from the states met up together in the atlanta airport to fly to chile over night and i dont think any of us slept for more than 3 hours. we were all exhausted. we spent the next day in a daze trying to get to know one another and the teachers while also trying to memorize the missiony purpose in spanish... and at the same time chile was playing a world cup game so the teachers were a little distracted =p we got through it though. and we all crashed super hard that night.




we thought day 1 was long but day two was longer. it was our first day in the mtc (we are living somewhere else in santiago in a house by a bunch of embassies) and it seemed like we were there for a week. but it was still an amazing day because i felt the spirit so strongly and learned so much about being a missionary in the classes we were in.




the days following those first two days have been extremely... bipolar. we will be on such a spiritual hi and then all ther sudden be torn down. we are beginning to teach mock investigators and the language barrirer is so unreal. we want to talk and get to know the investigators but speaking to them is pretty challenging at this point in time. i cant really even talk to them about soccer because i just dont know how. it feels demoralizing. but yesterday in my night class (the best class of the day) our teacher shared a message with us that i loved. we might not speak the language very well but the language of the spirit is universal. as missionaries we are just mediums in which the spirit reaches our investigators. if we can just get them to the point in which the spirit can touch their hearts than we are doing and saying exactly what we need to.




i love this mission already. i am so thankful for the oppertunity i have to be here. if anyone is on the fence about serving i highly recomend they come out because it is truly life changing.




i love you all. i cant wait to hear back. i will be back on in a week!!!! now it is time to go to the satiago temple =)




love,

Elder Johnson




p.s. pdays are on tueday the whole time im in the mtc







i love you and miss you mom. im doing well! my stomach is really good because the food here isnt super flavorful. im having funa and being safe. tell the girls i love them and im sorry i didnt write back but an hour really flies. thanks for getting all that done for me. please just spell check and correct anything in the emails i write home before you put them on the blog.




i love you




elder johnson




(I know that Declan wants me to clean up his grammar and spelling, but I am choosing to leave it so that he can look back and see how hard it was for him to get used to a Spanish keyboard, and also to watch as his Spanish becomes easier to speak and his English becomes harder. Another thing I want to remember is the fact that my constant worry about his stomach, something I have been concerned about for over a year, was immediately addressed by Declan and yet another concern taken off my plate- at least for now.)

Declan's Story

Up to this point this has been my story, from my perspective. Now it is time to turn it over to Declan. I will begin to post his weekly emails to this blog and let him tell us about his experiences. If there comes a time when I have a perspective or some insight I will write a quick post, but from here on out it will be mostly Declan's Story.

 

Is He There Yet?

The next morning I woke up and was just in a funk. I felt a little grumpy, but really had no reason why. Rodney seemed to be a little off also. We were packing up and getting ready to head out to pick Cambria up that night from girls camp, which was 3 hours away, and then head to Baton Rouge for a tournament the next day. I knew that it was a good thing we had a busy schedule in the upcoming days, yet I just wanted to lay in my bed and and do nothing. Throughout the morning Rodney kept saying things like "Do you think he made it? How are we supposed to know it all went ok? Surely someone should let us know he is there! Do you think we are going to seriously have to wait a week to hear from him?" I was trying to just continually tell myself that no news was good news in this situation, but his constant wondering kept me a bit on edge. At about 12:30 my phone vibrated letting me know I had an email, and instead of the normal junk mail that comes through several times a day I found this precious gem:

Who would have thought that such a small little note could have such a positive impact on my day. I did not realize the weight of the anxiety that I was carrying on my chest about his arrival until it was magically taken away by this email. Rodney and I laughed about our ditzy blonde son, and the thought of his mistake made me giggle throughout the day. In the matter of seconds the grumpiness I was feeling melted away and I felt happy and alive. He was there, he was happy, and he was right where he was supposed to be.

 

 

The Airport

When we arrived at the airport Rodney stopped at the curb in the terminal instead of parking. I was so confused as to what he was doing, was he expecting us to just drop him at the curb and say good-bye then and there? I guess the look on my face said it all and he told me his truck was to tall to park in any of the garages except one in a different terminal. I couldn't believe he was just going to drop him off and say good-bye like that. Later I realized that it was probably the best way for him to say good-bye. As Rodney sat and hugged Declan on that curb he held him tight and told him he loved him and how proud he was of him. I could see him fighting back the tears, and I had to look away in order to keep my emotions in check. Dec and I then grabbed his luggage and headed inside to the Delta counter to get him checked in. As we scanned his passport his name and some other really funky name came up. We were both a bit confused, but just clicked on his name and went on. We got all of his luggage checked in, and then headed to security. Declan's face was turning a little red and I asked if he was nervous. He smiled at me and said yes. As we headed toward the security line we noticed a Samoan family holding signs that said Return with Honor. Declan said, "I wonder if they have a missionary coming or going somewhere?" Honestly I could not really pay much attention to it because I was so afraid that if I broke my concentration I would fall apart. As we got to the opening of the security line, the lump in my throat felt like it was the size of a grapefruit. I sat and hugged my baby boy and fought to keep it together. He actually held me in an embrace much longer than I had intended, but hey, there was no one behind us and I wasn't going to complain. When we finally broke apart he headed to the security section and started emptying everything into those lovely gray containers. It was taking every fiber of my being to not start bawling. As he went through the X-Ray machine they decided to pull him aside and check something out. About this time the mother of the family with the "Return with Honor" signs approached me and asked if I had a missionary heading out. I nodded my head yes, as I didn't think I could speak. She then asked me where he was headed. It took me a minute to answer because I knew as soon as I opened my mouth I would lose it. I tried as hard as I could to speak normally, but the words Santiago Chile West Mission came out of my mouth as a sob, and I had to step around the corner so that Declan would not see me as I tried to pull it back together. She excitedly told me that her daughter was headed to that same mission, and then I realized that strange name that came up with his when we checked in was hers. I felt a huge surge of relief as I told her Declan would be so happy to have a traveling companion with him, and then I stepped back around the corner just as Declan was putting his belt back on and told him she was going to his same mission. He gave me a thumbs up, finished buckeling his belt, grabbed his carry on, and then it was the moment I had been dreading. He turned and looked at me one last time, mouthed "I Love You", blew me a kiss, and turned the corner out of my sight and into his new life. I quickly ran over to the sister missionary and wished her luck, and then did everything in my power to walk, not run out of the airport doors. As I hit the side walk where Rodney was parked I ran to the truck and hopped in as fast as I could. Rodney looked at me with tears in his eyes, and I finally let mine flow freely. As we drove off we sat in silence as the tears flowed down our cheeks. When our emotions were under control we talked about what an incredible guy Declan is and how blessed we are to call him ours. One thing that Rodney said was how lucky the people of Chile were going to be to have him there, and that he would be such a breath of fresh air to his president. Rodney is really soft hearted, so I order to not get real emotional he puts on a tough front. Once those walls are taken down though he has one of the most tender hearts around. When he says something like that you know that he is not just giving you lip service, but that he truly means it. I then saw a text that he had sent out to those he is close to. It said:

Reading this made me lose control of my emotions one more time, and I thought about the fact that it was not just Declan making a sacrifice by serving for two years of his life, but that we as a family were also making a sacrifice by not having him around over the next two years. It is a sacrifice we are willing to make, and we know that the people who's lives he will bless will be eternally grateful, but it is a sacrifice non the less.

On the way home Rodney stopped by Bahama Bucks and let me drown my sorrows away with a Stawberry Daiquiri Bahama Mama Rama (a snowcone on a scoop of vanilla ice cream with cream on top). That evening Rodney and I sat in our living room alone watching a movie together, and then crashed out hard as we were both emotionally drained. As I went to bed and drifted off to sleep I wondered what Declan was doing, thinking, and feeling at that exact moment- and was hoping he was getting some sleep on the plane before he landed in Chile and started his first day in the MTC.

 

Saturday, June 28, 2014

June 17th D-day

I woke up this morning feeling a little emotional. I did not want to have an emotional day, I did not want to boo hoo my last moments with Declan away; But as I woke up I felt a little bit heavy in my heart. I reached for my phone so I could distract myself with Instagram and Facebook, and quickly found myself writing this post:

I allowed myself about five minutes to tear up, to get lost in my emotions, and then I told myself it was time to pull myself together and get on with our busy day. We had packing to finish, a few errands to still run, and a 4:45 deadline to get him checked in at the airport. The day passed very quickly. Jessie Bishop came by and brought Declan a sweet bag of things she wished she would have had when she went to the MTC (extra pens and pencils, post it notes, a 3 subject notebook, and some snacks). We finished all of the packing and before we headed out to run our errands Declan gave me a blessing. It was a beautiful blessing, and the tears that I had tried to dam up all day flowed free for a moment. As I hugged Declan I told him those were the only tears he would see from me that day. Quickly I dried them up and we headed out to finish up. First we went to walmart to get Declan's prescriptions. The pharmacy was closed of course. Declan wanted to get a voice recorder, so we looked there for one- no luck. We headed to Radio Shack next to look there for one- got it. Next we headed to the bank to make sure they had everything they needed to ensure Declan's debit card would still work in Chile over the next two years, and get a medical release notarized. Of course this would be the first time since I've lived here that I would have to sit and wait on someone to help me. We waited for at lest 20 minutes, and when we finally did get help we found out we needed to change him to a new kind of account. The woman that was helping us was so interested in what Declan was doing that it took her about 30 mins to get the accounts switched over because she just kept asking questions. I was starting to get a bit panicked because time was running out. We finally made it back to Walmart, and I ran in to quickly get Declan's prescriptions. Yeah right! They had forgotten to order in his stomach prescription and did not have any available. The one thing I have worried most about is Declan's stomach on his mission. Every day I made it a point to tell him several times to make sure he ate smart and kept his stomach in check. Now they had no stomach medicine for him!!!!! I had done so well with my emotions all day, and now I could feel them right on the edge. The pharmacist (who I have come to know all too well because of the insane about of medicines I have to pick up monthly) saw me and could tell I was flustered and came over to help me out. As I explained that I had to have Declan at the airport in an hour and a half, and there was no stomach medicine there for him to take, he quickly said they would get it fixed and went to work. Before long they had located some of the medicine (only 30 day worth instead of 90- but some is better than none) at a different store, gave me my other prescriptions for free because of their mix up, and had me on my way to the other pharmacy. When I got to the other store the medicine was waiting on me and I was in and out in minutes. The guy who helped me check out told me he knew Declan and that he was leaving that day to go on a mission trip to Chile. He told me he had been following it on his Facebook and wanted me to tell Declan good luck and he would be thinking of him. All of the sudden my panic faded away and the happiness of Declan's choice once again calmed me down. We had wanted to take Declan out for a steak before we left, but all of the hiccups in our day had caused us to run out of time, so we stopped by Freebird's and fed him a monster burrito for his last meal. And then we were on our way.

 

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There are just a couple things I want to remember about Declan preparing for his mission.

  • One of the things that I loved was listening to Declan tell people he was going to Chile on a "mission trip" for two years. Where I come from we would say "I'm going on a mission" or "I will be serving a mission", but when I heard Declan say "I'm going on a mission trip" I knew he was a Texan. Every time he said it I smiled.
  • Everywhere we went we always needed to plan on it taking a little bit longer because anytime we were out we would undoubtedly see someone we knew, and Declan made sure to take the time to tell them about his mission. I was amazed at all that people wanted to know about his "mission trip". Everyone had seen the missionaries in suits walking around, and now they had the perfect person to ask questions about them to. I sat and listened as he answered question after question, some of them not easy, and was amazed at his maturity and understanding as he eloquently answered them. Everyone was so impressed with his decision to serve, and they continually told him how proud they were of him and what a great choice he was making. Their encouragement was amazing.
  • During the time leading up to Declan's mission I was so overcome with love for our community that has become like an extended family, and grateful for the influences of the people in it on our kids lives. Members and non-members alike have had such a good, positive influence on our children, and have helped to encourage them to not only be themselves, but be the best version of themselves. We have been very blessed to be surrounded by such a good, loving community.
  • I have felt the blessing of the many people in my life that have been keeping Declan and our family in their prayers. We have had members, non-members, Facebook friends, nurses at doctors offices, ladies in the bank, all kinds of people tell us that they will be praying for us, and we have felt their prayers.

  • I received an email from one of Declan's old scout leaders who moved a couple years ago. He included this picture that he was getting ready to send to all of the young men that are in it. Everyone of the boys in the picture are now serving a mission. EVERY SINGLE ONE. All of the boys were so different than each other, yet they all were friends and all loved each other fiercely. If you were to ask Declan about any of the boys above you would hear nothing other than the amazing qualities that that one person had, because that is how they saw each other. What an amazing group of boys to grow up with.
  • My love for the ward we are in, the ward that is home for my children, grew even more. I thought of the individuals that made that ward feel like home for my children. I thought of the leaders that had gotten to know and grew to love my kids. I better appreciated the time they spend with them, the times they put up with them when they are ornery, and how my children have always felt loved in their presence. I thought of the people in the ward that have become more like family members than friends. I thought of the youth they've grown up with; the lessons they have learned in patience, forgiveness, humbling themselves, and finding the best in others. I have became so appreciative of the fact that our ward has become our ward family.
  • One thing I never wanted to do was make Declan feel pressured into serving a mission. I have always hoped he would, but wanted it to be something he wanted to do and his decision. I learned that several years ago my dad sat down with Declan and told him that as the oldest grandkid he needed to be a good example to all of his cousins and serve a mission. He felt a lot of pressure to live up to that, something I never wanted him to have to feel the weight of. As Declan started to become of age and was starting to thinking about his mission he knew it was something he needed to do in order to set a good example. When he prayed about when he should serve he felt very impressed to go to school first and then go. His original plan was to go to school for a semester and leave on his mission around Christmas, but that was not the plan The Lord had for him because nothing worked out so we could get his papers in on time. It was a very frustrating time for Declan, but when he accepted the fact that he would have to wait until the school year was over everything started to fall into place. He began to want to serve a mission for himself and the people he would reach, along with being an example to others. The mission began to become something that was personal to him, and not something he was doing just to check it off on the list. He learned to trust in The Lord and his timing.
  • While my parents were here my dad made the comment that Declan was ready. I said, "you think?" And he said he thought he as probably more prepared than any of my brothers. I was shocked by that statement, and it stuck in my head the rest of the time Declan was here. As I sat and talked to Declan, watched Declan, and listened to Declan over the next couple weeks I knew that without a shadow of a doubt he was ready. He had done an amazing job of preparing himself, and he really understood the importance of what he was doing.